Craigslist

I've had varying experiences with Craigslist. Mostly they vary from 'good' to 'meh'. Lately they have been 'bad'. After waiting in line at the DMV Saturday morning I was on my way with the boyfriend to the man who said he had rex does for sale. Running late I decided to give him a call during which is casually told me that all of the rabbits were gone. I don't like talking on the phone, I have terrible anxiety and I am more than awkward. So when I called the guy that Thursday to make an appointment to see his rabbits I was being brave. And I was going to have to be brave again because getting a doe meant that I had to slaughter a rabbit after we had gotten home. I was a little peeved hearing how cavalier he was on the phone. Also he didn't remember who I was. Saturday had a crap beginning, and Craigslist got another bad mark from me.
Since we were only about ten minutes from home we headed back, both of us feeling kind of good. I honestly don't think we are ready to kill that rabbit. But there is no way to ease into slaughtering an animal. 
I have a hard time eating meat that is far removed from my line of sight. I have never been a big meat eater anyway, but I enjoy it when I do, mostly. I am usually disappointed by meat when I buy it. At the store it lacks flavor and integrity. The last few chickens I've bought from the local farmers market were freezer burned, dry and chewy. I know that food can taste amazing. I know that when it is brought up well it is nourishing in a way that processed food can never be. This is why I want to bred meat rabbits. I know that in my care they will be loved and they will have a good existence. My rabbits wont want for food or water, I let them hop around outside in the grass, I don't cram them into too small cages. They will have been treated just as well as I treat my cats because I value them. They will taste good, if only for the hard work and the knowledge of a job well done.
    I don't understand the mindless consumption of meat pieces and products that have been so far removed from the animal that Cow Chicken Pig are abstract beings in people's minds. I also don't really understand veganism.   
    As far as not wanting to eat meat because you have a sense that something isn't right with what you are doing. I get that. I'm going to bring the animals to me...as much as my HOA will let me. I need that if I'm going to keep eating them.


Mostly this weekend was uneventful. I reupholstered an ottoman. It was previously covered in a hideous pastel pink denim fabric and now its not.

I landed myself two interviews so we shall see how that goes. 
One of my cats is pulling out his hair. In protest of what, I have no idea. 
It is never boring around here.